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The thing that bugs me about the most recent suicide is that he had terminal cancer. Oregon has the Death with Dignity Act. I just don’t get it.


Written by mellydea

June 7, 2011 at 8:49 am

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This is turning out to be a depressing year – in general terms, that is.  Everything that has happened has indirectly affected me.  In the past month, I’ve known about two suicides. These are people I do not know – one, I believe I met once and the other was a cousin (third cousin, maybe).  Still.  You never want to hear about someone taking their life. Especially when you know what they were feeling. Or at least have a good idea.  I’ve been there before.  On the brink. It’s not fun. You just want the pain to stop but it won’t.

The most recent death was a man in his 60s. He had advanced prostate cancer.  He covered the backseat of his truck with a tarp, tied a garbage bag around his neck, covered his body with a tarp and shot himself in the head.  My stepfather found him.

Just two weeks prior my 15-year old cousin (whom I’ve never met but I was really close to her aunt), after being bullied for months and attempting to take her life once before, hung herself.  Her little brother found her.

I can’t stop thinking about either person and hope that, in this instance, things don’t come in threes.

Written by mellydea

June 7, 2011 at 8:28 am

Posted in ramblings